My father was always claiming he had been planning to do something tor us, but he had no 38 . The man who was 39 to love us, in fact, lacked the _40_ of what it truly meant 41 , Maybe it to love a child.

Maybe it was his complicated relationship to his father that made him was the pain 42 with a life of misfortune. Who knows? Whatever it was, it stole him from us，and 43 from me. Not understanding me, he simply 44 . 一 me-not just emotionally,

but 45 as well. Never once did he hug me.

My best memories of him were from his 46 at participation. Once every month or two,he would 47 and drive us to Trucker's Paradise. To me, the games were fun but easih forgotten.It was the 48 of my father that was most treasured.

It wasn't until I was much older that I would find evidence of my father's love.

When my favorite personal computer came onto the market, I convinced myself that I had to have it even though its price was far 49_ my mother's reach. 1 mowed (割草) every yard I could find that summer, 50_ it still wasn't enough. Then my dad agreed to help me 51 the rest of the money by selling watermelons.This

the rest of the money by selling watermelons. This was the first time that I had ever spent time alone with him. He laughed and repeatedly 52 me as "my boy"，a phrase he relayed with a sense of 53 .

It just goes to show that however distant the father and however broken the _54_，there is still a need for even the smallest bit of 55 of a father's love. Although he had never told me that he loved me，I would regard that day as the greatest evidence of that fact.

36.A. brief B. separate C. severe D. unbearable

37.A. wishing for B. looking for C. applying for D. providing for

38.A. intention B. permission C. possession D. attention

39.A. advised B. required C. supposed D. instructed

40.A. allocation B. affection C. guarantee D. comprehension

41.A. cautious B. distant C. greedy D. selfish

42.A. connected B. related C. faced D. decorated

43.A. directly B. officially C. temporarily D. particularly